God, please save my Por-Por!

FRIENDSTER: 10 JAN 2007

Dear All,
I bring bad news.
My dear por-por is in a critical condition. Her organs are failing one by one. She was admitted to the Ampang Hospital yesterday evening (5 minutes' drive from my house) - Opposite Pandan Mewah McDonald's.
The nursing home called my mom and informed her that my granny refused to eat nor drink anything for the past two days. Aunty Jill and Uncle Ivan went in the evening and bought her 'wantan', which she gobbled and washed down with Brand's Essence of Chicken. We were told that her stool were black and they suspected it was blood. the dr came and advised us to send her to the hospital. She was ghastly pale when i saw her. Dr said that her kidneys are failing fast (previously, her kidneys still had 60% function a year after her stroke). And her lungs were hazy, she din have enuf oxygen. to much potassium in her blood & it might cause heart failure. She was nervous and afraid, refused to let go of my hand. Mom accompanied her last night.
Today, dr gave us two options to help reduce the toxin in her blood (as a result of her reduced kidney function) i.e. A) operate on her and attach a tube to her, draining her blood and replenishing new blood. Might only help for two days. B) dialysis - how could a frail old lady like my por-por stand the dialysis?! she's weak enough now. we dun think tht she could endure it! And , the dr said that even so, the chances are lass than 50%
God... I really dunno what to do... I dont want to see her leave me. I wont allow that! I wont, not even if i've exhausted all the medical avenues! But my family have othr thoughts. I just cant bear it.I dun wan her to suffer, yet i dont want her to leave me. I cant think now... I dont want to know that she's gonna leave me.
Please pray for her, my dear friends. If God really loves her, dun let her suffer. She doesnt deserve to suffer. If God really loves me, dun take her away from me.
I havent said my goodbye yet.
I dont want to say my goodbye at all...